It has been some time since I’ve blogged. A couple of weeks at least. I would like to say that I have not been posting because I’ve been slaving away at my novel or some other writing project, but that would not be entirely true. I have done some writing. Entered a contest. Worked on another story for another contest. And jotted out a rough outline for the last part of my youth novel. But that’s not what has been keeping me from blogging.
I could blame the beautiful weather that has hit the DC area. I even escaped outside to try to get some writing done today. See here’s the proof:
I’ve done everything but write today, actually. I read a bit of that book next to my computer (more on that book later). Had a great lunch. Walked around my neighborhood. Now I’m sitting in front of the library sucking in the sunshine and warm weather that has finally come to the area. I seem to only go out when it has been raining, so it’s nice to be outside for once. It seems to rain every Wednesday, which is when I go to my writer’s group. We even joke about it. ”It’s raining, must be Wednesday!” or “Oh yuk, it’s raining!” ”Of course it is, it’s Wednesday! Time for writer’s group!”
Work has been extra stressful recently and I’ve been pretty crabby about it. And when work is extra stressful…
I have a tendency to use video games to de-stress…after work of course. Specifically, games that have loads of destruction, explosions, or pvp. (that’s player vs player arenas for you non gamer types.) Yes, the secret is out, I’m a gamer. “But you’re a girl!” Yes, yes I am and I have a wicked backstab, so watch out.
But these are simply excuses. The truth is, I could do all of that and find time to seriously focus on writing and blogging. So, I guess it is time to face the music and admit the real reason I’ve avoided blogging recently.
Fear. Yes, I said it. Fear.
Let me explain. I’ve had another idea for another project recently. One that is much more personal that will force me to discuss very personal issues that I have been dealing with recently. Well, more than just recently. But it has been recently I have been actively working to do something to solve a huge obstacle in my life. And I have spent a lot of time considering whether or not I should blog about it.
My idea would require that I create a separate blog plus a huge time commitment, the willingness to stay focused, and the promise to be open and honest about what I’m experiencing. It is my hope that what I am doing will be a profoundly life changing event in a very positive way. I think it will be. But it has already proven to be much different than I thought it would be.
I will still be doing this blog 2-3 times per week as I promised at the beginning of the year. I will probably link the blogs. I have not worked out all of the details yet, but I will probably be getting it started this weekend. So, stay tuned.
And since my laptop is not solar powered, I have to regrettably find my way to an outlet, which is probably inside.
Happy Memorial Day weekend! :)